Do me a favor. Get a piece of paper and write down a challenge you’re facing. Then write down another. It’s ok–I’ll wait. Done?
I don’t know if you’re like me, but I’m task-oriented. I’m a fixer. It’s just my nature. But in that task orientation and fixing, I can get off track.
I focus on the problems, the trials, the challenges. I “just keep swimming”, pushing ever harder against the waves, forgetting there’s a boat next to me.
I get overwhelmed by the challenges I can’t fix. I cry because my son with autism can speak, but he can’t communicate. I ask him too many questions in an effort to understand, and I make him melt away more into himself. I wish I could fix the sensory issues that bother him so he and his brother could enjoy each other more despite their differences. I wish I could help my youngest understand a little better.
I wish, I wish, I wish. I push on, hanging on to the knowledge that God is in control.
But I forget.
I forget that God is bigger. God is bigger than autism. God is bigger than Sensory Processing Disorder. God is bigger than sibling squabbles and daily stress. God is bigger than my fear. God is bigger than my anxiety. God is bigger than my lack of faith.
God. Is. Bigger.
I was struck by the end of Psalm 46 the other day. “The God of Jacob is our fortress.” Now, David was writing that many years after Jacob, but the same is true for us. The God of Jacob, Isaac, Abraham, Paul, Rahab, Esther, Ruth, Moses…he’s still the same, and he’s a fortress!
He holds me in his hand. He holds my child in his hand. And there’s room to spare. He knows what my child cannot say. And he loves us.
Take that paper out. Write God is bigger than in front of each challenge you wrote down. Tape it to your mirror. Say it out loud. Write it on your hand. Make that your one thing for the next week. He is bigger and he is a fortress. Remember that. Rehearse it.
God is bigger than autism and in that knowledge I am humbled and ever so grateful.
If you’re a special needs parent hanging on, I recommend the book The Life We Never Expected (affiliate link). I read it while waiting for jury duty. It’s full of deep truths but put in extremely easy to read language. An autism mom and dad share their struggles, and even if your child doesn’t have autism, you’ll relate to a lot of the general struggle of life. If you’re not familiar with God’s sacrificial love for you, learn more here.
Where will you put your “God is bigger” note? Tell me!
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